Loaded question - I would have to answer in three parts.
1). Around 7th or 8th grade, I didn't fit in with other kids. They liked
normal sports and music, I didn't. They had a group of friends, I didn't.
I did not talk to them much but kept to myself and maintained a few
acquaintances that I talked with. I liked the rain, the thunder, the
lightening. I even used to lick my own cuts and scrapes. Snuck the
drippings from the styrofoam packs from the steaks when opened as I have
seem dad do. I enjoyed tearing apart toys or dad's stuff that was
electrical, and put them back together and see if they worked, some
failed, many an ass beating for that mistake. I was a snail mail science
club member and built plastic and metal models for fun. Later on around
freshman year, I noticed that I was all alone, no one liked me, or they
hated me. I found that I had a thing for animals, bugs, water, grass,
fire, and loved monsoon storms. I couldn't figure that one out for years,
Mom used to yell at me to get inside, but I'd rather be out there when
the pansies ran inside to hide. We didn't have PC's back then, only the
Federal Government had them as test subject projects. I went to the
school library, looked at books in the science area and found absolutely
nothing. So I went on and graduated high school and couldn't figure out
why I was so different. Then I joined the Army, went through all my
training, got sent here and there, and suddenly, I preferred night shift,
couldn't grasp why, but volunteered, and kept night shift my whole
career. (Have to admit, I hate Officers). Then the dawn of PC's came
about, and the BBS's, bingo!!!!
2). In or Around 1995 or 1996, I got my first home PC, a Tandy 1000RL and
opened up a BBS called Nightmare.BBS... It was a Halloween typed board
that had files, games, and message boards, although it was one line only.
I started reading some of the posts and started thinking about stuff, and
then AOL became available, "bingo" again, I looked up witches, warlocks,
nothing... the typed in vampire,,,, guess what,,,,, I found a couple of
sites, went and read some stuff at them, found a site that I liked, and
talked to the owner who was called, Princess Kissandra Gaia'Roi or
something. We talked for a long while, then sent me to Vampire-Church
because she couldn't answer my questions. That was about 1997 and spent
time "lurking" in the list. I spent a time afterwards, saying and asking
questions, that's when it hit me, I was a Vampire. Then I talked in
e-mail to Shadow and Dunya at that time, and they answered a lot for me.
That was when I knew, I had the right place, and in 1999, I became a
member after Shadow's interview, and Damien's approval.
3). After all these years, I have learned a great deal. In the
beginnings, I thought differently about Vamps, the classes of them. But
have learned that a Vampire is just that, a Vampire, someone who needs to
gain energy from another source than what their own body can make, or
maintain properly. Psi, Elm, Sang, Pranic, it doesn't matter. What really
matters is we are of one type, an Energy feeder, a classification does
not matter.
Eric Allen
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